Sunday, November 30, 2014

Happy Sunday

Happy Sunday !! 
I woke up yesterday feeling so much better ready to take on the world again. No more nausea and no more stomach cramps . Bonus point  , a weeks worth of  blog post . When you spend days in bed that's the least I could do . ( besides all the sleeping I was doing ) 
Starting my Sunday off with my daily devotional and reading my bible and a hot cup of coffee . I thank god the pain is gone . Today is going to be a lazy/ productive day . Replying back to emails and watching loads of Christmas movies. 
Til later on my loves 

Wednesday, November 26, 2014

My Night At The Hospital

Disclaimer : this may get really tmi !

Hey ladies and gents! 
For the past couple of days I've been miserable . Throwing up , couldn't eat , I couldn't even keep water down . Yesterday was my breaking point . I laid in bed all day couldn't move because if I did something was coming out . Over the past couple days I've thrown up over 20 times . My bestie took me to the hospital last night because she knew I was dehydrated and we had to figure out what the heck was going on . The waiting room bathroom was my best friend . I kept running back . I didn't want everyone seeing me puke and cry . I can't help it when I puke I cry like a baby at the same time . It's painful . I finally made it back to sit but something didn't feel right . My stomach cramps was coming back . I was getting dizzy , so i ran to the nurses station and then came the panic attack . I couldn't help it , I've never felt so bad in my life. They rushed me back into the critical room and got me in a gown . The nurse was able to calm me down and i shortly after dozed off . The doctor woke me up and gave me my diagnosis . I have gastritis ( inflammation in the stomach ) . How in the world did I get that ? She said mine was probably cause by some type of bacteria or virus . I had to put on fluids because I was dehydrated and given other medications for the nausea and stomach pain/ inflammation . Before I did that she wanted me to get a X-ray just make sure nothing else was wrong . Who knew  you had to take your pants off for a X-ray . And my crazy self wore a thong . Getting sexy at the hospital ?? I finally got hooked up to the IV and I had to call my buddy M . Talking to him calmed me . Because I hate needles and just being at the hospital scared me . Finally after 20 minutes of the IV I finally got to drink something APPLE JUICE!!! It was so amazing . And then the nurse gave me water with hospital ice ( now everyone know the hospital has the the best ice lol ) it felt so good to drink something and for it to stay down . After a while they discharged me . Now I'm comfy in my bed still feeling drained from all the throwing up but I'll be ok . My best friend is so amazing for getting me to the hospital without her I'll probably still be sittings here throwing  up or possibly worse . 
Hopefully I feel up to eating thanksgiving dinner tomorrow . 

Tuesday, November 11, 2014

The Rebound

Why do we have what we don't want ? And want what me don't have ? 

Many people say the best way to get over someone is to get under someone else. 

Is this true ?? 

Hopping into bed with someone else will help you get over someone ?
Or is it just a temporary fix ? 
Lost in the passion with one when your heart wants another . 

And what if you start having feeling for this person ? 
Are they real ? 
Or are they just an emotional wall to help you get over the other guy ....... 


Monday, November 10, 2014

Blank Spaces

How was your weekend ? I spent most of mine in bed , watching Christmas movies and writing. 
I need to take a serious break from social media ( excluding my blog ) 
To login on facebook and seeing your ex logged on is somewhat of a blow to the heart . 
I know you're probably thinking " why don't you delete him? " . I just don't have the heart to do it yet or even at all . I still don't know why we aren't together . But I guess we don't get the answers to everything . But why do men do that one moment we was really good then we wasn't . Or was it never good and I just overlooked all the  warning signs . Is that the new thing just not giving a fuck . Stringing people along then poof you're gone ! 
Why do I even care anymore ? 
I try not to but I can't help it . 
He still has a part of my heart . 

Friday, November 7, 2014

Friday Hitlist

Happy Friday !!! 
There  will no longer be " Music Monday's " 
Friday Hitlist is back . 
This week has been somewhat of an emotional week for me 
And the 5 songs I've chosen will totally reflect that 

1. I'm not the only one - Sam Smith 
2. Everybody's got somebody but me - Hunter Hayes 
3. The heart wants what it wants - Selena Gomez 
4. Lay me down - Sam Smith 
5. Just A Fool - Christina Aguilera 

P.S : there will be lot of changes coming to the blog even 
a possible name change!!!!