Sleep so I can see them
So I can have a moment of false happiness
The past week I've been having amazing dreams
Just for a moment I get to " live " the life I always wanted
My parents alive , healthy and together
If only that all was true
In what universe does someone lose both parents a little bit over a year apart
There was so much more learning and guidance I needed
So much more love I had to give and to receive
So many more memories to be had .
Like that special moment when that special someone ask my father for my hand in marriage
Going wedding dress shopping with my mother
Or having her there to coach me through while I give birth to my child .
Just thinking about all the memories that could've been had
But it was only just a dream