Saturday, August 3, 2019

My Development Year

I'm in my development year.
This may sound crazy to most but I'm taking to focus solely on me, on my craft
I've been on dating apps for the past couple months and it has been an epic fail
I've attracted the same time of men.
Either the let's get in a relationship after hello men or lets fuck without the hello
After many encounters like this I think its my ora, my vibe that is attracting these type of men to me
I'm deleting all my apps ,they are no longer needed.
I really need to work on myself
I need to work on the woman I deserve to be
I hold myself back a lot out of fear of the unknown.
I've held myself back from my personal growth
I've come up with so many ideas
Sitting here at almost 30 I need focus on myself 
At times I focus all my energy on others and helping them and I leave myself with nothing 
 I need to take a leap and major changes in my life
My focus now is my health, happiness and peace

Thursday, August 1, 2019


I am NOT  a BBW 
 I would rather you call me fat before you call me a BBW
For those that don't know what a BBW is , it stands for Big Beautiful Women 
Some of you are you are probably wondering " Why wouldn't you want to be called that ??"
BBW is mostly used in the sex industry and most use it as a term for a sexual fetish
I not here for your fetish pleasures .
Some woman take that a term of endearment
I take it as an insult
I am a person
Yes I'm bigger
But I am not here for you to objectify and dehumanize
I don't want your negative attention
I don't want you to try to get with me because of the size of my body
I'm not your sex object
I totally understand some people have a " preferences "
But please keep that away from me .
I want you to fall in love with my mind
and not just talk to me because you want to bury your face in my ass


Tuesday, July 30, 2019

Not Really Friends

I definitely had an a few na├»ve months this year. I met this guy on a dating site at the beginning of the year. I felt  connected to him instantly after our amazing conversations.After a weeks of talking I was finally comfortable enough to meet, but it never happened. Between crazy snowstorms and our crazy work schedules it never happened. It seemed like every time we tried to meet the skies had other plans for us and multiple inches of snow would fall. Living almost two hours away from someone you’re interested in is hard, but we kept the conversations going daily. Finally the snow seemed to pass and the weather was finally getting warmer, I figured finally I get to meet him. So much for wishful thinking it never happened, I kept getting excuses and excuses on why we couldn’t meet up. The one that put the nail in the coffin was when I moved my work schedule around so i could have the weekend off only for him to say “ there is 30% chance of rain so I don’t want to make that drive ” ( it never rained).  I’ve taken bullshit excused like that before but at that point I was over situation. So I told home should only be friends. For a couple of weeks communication was non-existent. Over time our conversations started up again. I knew I couldn’t pursue anything romantically with him but I was open to a friendship. Lack of consistency, not really wanting to see me was a major turn off, but it was good to have a friend to talk to. I had a friend, so I thought. We didn’t talk as often which was cool with me but when we did it was good have someone to vent to and to also be a listening ear. I knew he would never be anything but a “ pen pal” ( in our case a texting buddy). 
Last week I was in Las Vegas and things got really weird between us. 
I posted a few pictures of my outfits while in Las Vegas and then the messages started pouring in.
So many sexual suggestive messages, I tried to brush it off and laugh about it.
After constantly getting them I was feeling annoyed and uncomfortable.
I finally got up the nerve to call him our on it 
Of course it turned back on me and he said I was "hurting his feelings "
He told me he was trying to work his way out of "friend zone"
If that was the case he was definitely doing it the wrong.
The way to get to my heart is not sex 
I have learned a lesson from this 

Brittany Morgan 

Friday, June 7, 2019

Friday Night At Home Alone

Just me in my room watching " What A Girl Wants"  on Netflix 
with a glass of wine on the night stand.
This has been on long week.
Trying to brainstorm some new ideas for my makeup page
Just when I was ready to give up on my dream God snapped me back on track
I was recently contacted by an amazing makeup brand to a review on a few of their products
Almost a week after getting the email, I'm still crying just thinking about it.
I'm so blessed and happy for this opportunity 
This has given me the push I've needed to create again
I've doubted myself on my abilities and the things I love
I owe this all to God
I can't wait to share this brand with you guys 
I don't know what exactly I'm getting from them 
but whatever it is I'm grateful for it.
Thank you sticking with me through the highs and lows
I have this new burst of energy 
I'm going all in with this blog.

Brittany Morgan 

Monday, May 27, 2019

1200 Calorie Lifestyle Change

Recently I've stared a  1200 calorie diet
 I haven’t been losing the weight I want to do I had to make another change. 
With my doctor’s approval, I’m going down to a 1200 calorie diet. 
I’m determined to stay on track even with all the temptation around me
 I’ve been  watching “ My 600 Lbs Life” and I can’t allow myself to continue to gain the weight I have.
 The thought of me not being able to take care of myself because of my weight scares me
 I pray God guides me through this and helps me stay on track
This is mental, I have to put myself first. Put my health first
 I need to do this for my future. Please pray for me as I go on this new journey
 I know God will be with me and will give me the strength needed
 In the past I wanted my brother to join with me and when he doesn’t I lose track. No, I’m not blaming him but I've allowed my surrounding discourage me from what I know I need to do
 I can’t wait to see my results
I will most definitely keep you posted.

Brittany Morgan

Sunday, May 26, 2019

Weight Loss Rewards

I wanted to create a reward system for my weight loss goals 
Every 5lbs I lose I want to reward myself
I'm currently at my peak weak weight and I refuse to go higher
I leave for Vegas July 21 my goal is to be down by 20 to 40 lbs ( not a crazy goal I've done it before)

5lbs- Makeup Brush
10lbs - Bedroom Decor
15lbs - Running Shoes
20 lbs- New Hair Color 
25 lbs- Book
30lbs - Beauty Product 
35lbs - Facial 
40lbs- 2 Outfits
How do you reward yourself?

Brittany Morgan 

Wednesday, April 17, 2019

Mistakes I've Made Dating: Part One

I'm definitely not a pro at dating
But is anyone?
I know I've made my fair share of mistakes when it comes to dating
My mistakes are lessons I've learned on my journey to meeting my Prince Charming
After all the lies and pain I've been through I know there is someone special out there for me
I've just kissed a few bad frogs on my journey to him
Will I meet him tomorrow,  one year from now or in five years
Who Knows?!
Here are a few mistakes I've made so far

 Ignoring The Red Flags and Excuse
I'm the queen of ignoring the red flags. Knowing something sounds like bullshit but hoping it was the truth. Letting stuff roll off my shoulders when I should have ended it when I heard it or saw something crazy. I always try to give someone the benefit of the doubt.  Consistent flaking on dates, periods of time of that person disappearing is some of the key things I would overlook. Making up excuses in my head to cover their actions.

 Not Multi-Dating
I have a horrible habit of talking to one guy and ignoring all the other guys because of one guy and not weighing my options
Now I'm not saying I'm sleeping with everybody ( but if I did my body, my choice)
I've never just gone on dates to get to know multiple people at once
Understanding compatibility, finding out what I like and don't like 
With Multi-Dating communication is key and letting the other men know they aren't the only one
I've never multi-dated out of the fear of what others thought
Men have done this for years but women get slut-shamed for going on multiple dates 
Like Taylor Swift, she has dated her fair share of men, as she should 
It doesn't mean she slept with them all (and if she did, her body, her choice)
I really need to stop living in fear of people's thought and do what makes me happy

Dating A Non-Believer
I'm not here to judge anyone for their religion or lack thereof
I just know that I want a man who believes in God's Love
I've tried dating the atheist or the agnostic but I felt judged 
I shouldn't feel belittled for my faith
Not once didn't I try to force God on them
But the faces I'd get or the comments I would get for just praying or thanking God in a moment 
is not something I want. I want someone who I can study the Bible with
I want God  in the center of our relationship
What are some mistakes you've made when dating?

Brittany Morgan