Monday, January 28, 2013

My mother has breast cancer and for those out there who know someone with this horrible disease 
you see all the horrible things that happen to them .
Seeing my mother go through chemotherapy because she is tired of throwing up
Watching her cry from the from hearing that her cancer has returned for the third time . 

I stay strong for her . Not shedding a tear . Being the rock for her . Allowing her to take her anger out on me 
because i know she doesn't mean what she says I know she is just hurting .

Some day I really don't know what to do . She just sits on the couch and looks out the window. I pray for her all day long ! I just want to see her smile again . I love mother with all my heart . 

Everybody are putting in their comments about what she should be doing ( like what doctor she should go to and what kind of diet she should be on .) 
They have comments on what I should be doing for her . 
But they are not here daily and not here to see the pain she goes through.
I've noticed that when someone gets sick everybody comes around but when you are sick for too long they start drifting away .
My mother has had cancer for 3 years . 
My family was here when she was first diagnosis but everybody has gone back to their own lives and it seems like they don't really get care anymore . Its like after the third time they are over it . 
There are only a few that still call and check on my mother and check on me . 
But besides that most are just moving on. Or is it just me .Some day I feel like the world should stop . 

Some friends don't understand what I'm going through and I know they are because when I try to talk to them about it .The change to subject to talk about their boyfriend problems .
 Lately I feel like I have no one to talk to . 
I feel like I'm going to explode
Trying to hold it together for everybody and sometimes I just want to cry . 
I pray that God can give me the strength to be the rock my mother needs. 
I can't imagine what she is going through . I pray this time chemotherapy and radiation work and we can say goodbye to this horrible disease . 

I will keep you posted on her journey 
 Please keep my mother in your prayer 


Friday, January 18, 2013

Friday Hitlist!

Welcome to Friday Hitlist
This was something I did on my old blog and its something I would like to try to do here for 2013
Im music head .
There song for every emotion
I listen to music all day long

So each Friday I will take my top songs of the week 
And talk about them. 
Some of them will have a little bio with them depending on my mood of the week 
Some of the song will be current , throwbacks , and many different genres .

1. Those Who Wait - Daley 
I've been hearing this song a lot on the radio a lot lately but this song came out almost a year ago ( people finally catching up ) But I love this song . And this song really describes my life right now . Especially when it comes to work and my love life . I love this song its so relate-able ! Daley's voice is so amazing . It really does something to me . I'm really mesmerized listening to him sing and the listening to his lyrics really have me in my feelings 

2. Thrift Shop - Macklemore and Ryan Lewis 

This song is so much fun!!
 I love going shopping at thrift shopping .
This song just cracks me up every time i hear it ! 

3. Suit and Tie - Justin Timberlake / Jay- Z

He's back ladies and gentlemen!
Mr Timberlake !
 Love him
Ive been a Justin Timberlake fan since the beginning . I'm so happy that he has new music out ! 
Im so ready for the album ! 

4. Misery - Maroon 5

 For some reason this song has been stuck in my head!!! 

5. Love Song - Sara Bareilles 

Such a classic song . This will for ever be 
my favorite song .I still play this song like it came out 

6. Love and War - Tamar Braxton 



Saturday, January 12, 2013

#9 Finish A Book Series ( 23 in 23 )

I did it I finish a book series . Well all the books that are out . I finished the 
50 Shades of Grey Series. 
E.L James did hint at another book coming out but who knows 
I finished it. 

I finally completed something on my 23 in 23 list  .

I love all 3 of the books. I got some " shame on you " looks while I was reading it . 
But who cares!
E.L James is an amazing writer and I really hope she continues Ana's and Christians love story .
I'm also geeked for the MOVIE !! 
I really think that Ian Somerhalder should play Christian.
I have no idea for Ana . But Hey I would volunteer if its Ian !!! 

                                       Laters Baby ( 50 shades humor )

January Goals

It took me while to figure out what goals I wanted to set for myself this year.
I have so many I want to accomplish
So I've decided to break them up for each month
There won't be a set amount of goals each month it all depends on what I have going on in my life !  
And just because the the month is over doesn't mean I stop my goal I just add new ones each month 

1. Keep track of my daily exercise and food intake . I will be using 
2. Drink 8 cups of water daily 
3. Post at least 3 times a week on my blog 

Til next Month


Miss America

Its that time of the year again. Its time to crown Miss America ! Who Excited ?? I know I am ! 
Who are you cheering for ? I'm cheering for Miss Illinois , Megan Ervin . She is 23 years old from Rushville , Il , She attended Western Illinois University ( my brother's school , GO LEATHERNECKS ! ) 

Her platform is "The Heptathlon of Healthy Habits" .

Megan Ervin - Miss Illinois 

Good Luck Megan ! I can't wait to see you on stage. I will be cheering you along the whole way !

Who do you want to see get crowned Miss America ?